you can look cute and not break the bank!!!! diva on a muthafu$@n BUDGET $$$$

shopping is my mutha(insert f word) therapy...honey i can go into a mall,store,website,anyplace that is selling things and cleanse my soul lol....idk but shopping really does perk me up...i find deals and sales and i just get a rush of joy all over....so this weekend i went to the mall because i had a $10 rewards card to Victoria's secret and they are having 5 for $25 pantie sale soooo lol yall know i was in there like a size two thong on a fat bitch lmao....then i had a $10 off coupon at Vanity went in there and got a cami and a shirt....looked in forever 21 (i never find anything in there)...Charlotte Russe didn't have nothing well i would of got two sandals but the sales girl had a tude so they wasn't getting my money that day.....looked in a few other stores then stopped in old navy honey they was having a 30% off clearance sale.....now yall remember two years ago they had 50% off clearance and i racked the HELL up....so all and all my shopping this weekend was a success got sales on everything i purchased.....

ok here are some tips i just wanna share....i am not balling at all i look for sales now with me if i want something bad enough i will pay full price for it......but i don't spend alot of money on trendy stuff u know stuff that's going to be out of style next year...those kind of items imma buy cheap hey why pay $100's for something your going to give away neway....like those glitter pumps now they are cute as hell i want a pair....but they are trendy and more than likely will be out of style next year.....i go to gojane.com which is my store i get alot of trendy things cheap did yah hear me CHEAP!!!!!! also lulus.com cutesygirl.com nsideadivascloset.com, makemechic.com, etsy.com and beadybeeluv.com...its soooo many sites i wish i could name um all...

i have a YouTube channel imma start doing hauls in a few weeks coming up....i hope this was helpful for you divas on a budget like me....oh and make sure you sign up for stores emails and newsletters to get the 411 on sales....

man bashing!!!!!! leave his cheating ass

ok so i just got back from having a "drink" with my wonderful coworkers....and we was laughing and joking having a blast ( im laughing out loud) thinking about are crazy convos....neway well this blog is just going to be a breif thought i had while driving home...

i sit and i sometimes wonder why do us women think we have to put up with bull shit from these men...i mean really a man can cheat on yo ass, beat yo head in every damn day, have multiple kids on you...and we will stay by his side to the very end i don't get it...i say this because i was once a woman that thought i had to be this punk ass so called ride or die chick...until i had a news flash and realized he ain't riding for me so i had to bounce...honey when i say i been thru it its cause i have i only speak from what i know......im not going to blame my self esteem issue on a man but i was in a relationship for a very long time...i was cheated all the damn time i came to a point that i felt i couldn't keep a man happy....so yea i became insecure and that shit travels from relationship to relationship.....im always thinking yea you fucking with this bitch or that bitch...i honestly believe had i not stayed in a relationship and accepted cheating then i wouldn't think cheating is something all men do.

i just want us women to stand up and know you do not got to hold these grown ass men down fuck em yea i said it fuck these no good ass men...where the hell are their mothers call her and let her do her mother duties and hold her bum ass son down...i refuse to allow another human being to hurt me so bad that i give up on love...i wouldn't let another man think that i will ever do anything for him that he cant do for his self...meaning stop letting these men come move up in yo house....ugh ladies yall know what im saying break up with these no goods....idk just i thought i had while driving why do we as women put up with so much knock knock he ain't the only man in the world....

WHAT IS YOUR GIFT?

i asked a question on Facebook....what is your gift from God and the first response was "my life"....i love it now of course our life is truly a gift. Now with this question the answer i was looking for was what is your nitch like what do you believe god gave you as a tool to minister thru...is it your singing, dancing, acting or writing skill......but that answer my life was not the answer i was looking for however held so much weight i decided to blog....truly that is the ultimate gift from good your life is such a great testimony that you truly can Minster using your life as your tool...i tell you my God is a wonderful man he moves me and so many ways its amazing...that simple answer for my question sparked so many thoughts in me i feel like i just heard the word from a preacher or something...i tell yougod shows up and shows out....

Now me I am no holly then thou person its been months since i been to church but the lord is someone i know. I need to start living for him...last night in one of my emotional rants with my boyfriend i asked over and over why lord what did i do.....hmmm and that answer "my life" seemed to sum it all up....i need to start living for the lord.....god answers you and if you are paying attention you will get your answer...

As for what i believe my gift is well my intuition god has giving me the gift to not only Be able to read people but to understand emotion....I have this thing about me where i can read a heart and whatever someone is going thru jumps on me....like honestly for example if someone is depressed i get this feeling it literally attaches it self to me....that why IM really careful of whom i invite over my house which is not many people because for someone reason people like to bring their sprits and leave em with me...lol i know this sound weird but honestly everything every emotion is a sprit in my opinion....ill go into detail on that in an another blog so yea with that being said what is your gift?

girl yo hair NAPPY!

OK so i decided to go natural as i stated in my second blog....now the reason i decided to go natural was just cause i wanted to lol....really i don't have this fancy story of finding myself...my shift changed at work and i was not able to go get my routine relaxer....so i had to start weaving weaves sewed in and glued....so i was just like well let me do the natural thing for a while so here i am...its been 7 months since my last relaxer and i have been doing protective styles cause i still have relaxed ends and i don't got timed to deal with two hair types,,,,now yes I'm doing the BC but i wanted to wait til my 25th bday....so yea may 20 is the big day.

now moving right along to the word nappy...that word never bothered me as much as it does now...cause you know with going natural everybody in yo life become critics and hair experts....me i know the word should not hold that much power over me...but i must admit when someones calls my hair nappy i get into full bit@h what u say mode. simply because its a used in a derogatory way...,,like the other "n" word its like being called out your name. yea yea yea i know if another natural hair person says it i wouldn't be offended cause they would be using it as a term of endearment. lol ain't that double standards lol..but hey it is what is so yes i do not want anyone one referring to my hair as nappy. and that's it respect me like the woman i carry myself because i take an extra effort to maked sure i choose my words...i expect for other adults to do the same nappy and my name should not role of you tongue ever ok.

Corinthians 13

If I speak in the tongues of men and angels,
but have not love,
I have become sounding brass or a tinkling symbol. 

And if I have prophecy and know all mysteries and all knowledge,
and if I have all faith so as to remove mountains,
but have not love, I am nothing. 

And if I dole out all my goods, and
if I deliver my body that I may boast
but have not love, nothing I am profited.

Love is long suffering,
love is kind,
it is not jealous,
love does not boast,
it is not inflated.

It is not discourteous,
it is not selfish,
it is not irritable,
it does not enumerate the evil.
It does not rejoice over the wrong, but rejoices in the truth 
 

It covers all things,
it has faith for all things,
it hopes in all things,
it endures in all things.

Love never falls in ruins;
but whether prophecies, they will be abolished; or
tongues, they will cease; or
knowledge, it will be superseded.

For we know in part and we prophecy in part.

But when the perfect comes, the imperfect will be superseded.  

When I was an infant,
I spoke as an infant,
I reckoned as an infant;

when I became [an adult],
I abolished the things of the infant. 

For now we see through a mirror in an enigma, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know as also I was fully known. 

But now remains
 faith, hope, love,

these three;

but the greatest of these is love.

sour APPLES!

so yea i have this urge to write so here i am a 1:39am.....hmmm whats on my mind well my boyfriend (like always) lol...but yea we have been together what 1yr and 8months yea lol time flew hella fast.....so I'm thinking about how far we came and just thinking about all the early drama and stress makes me cringe.....this love shit is hard....i mean we fuss and bicker too damn much if you ask me....lol i always feel like I'm complaining about something (well in his words).....the hardest thing in this relationship (speaking for myself) has surely been accepting his baggage....i love this man with all my heart but lawd Jesus its been a struggle....mainly because and i strongly believe its our personalities not saying we don't mesh buuuuut um we both are stubborn and strong willed.....i feel like we both fight to get the last say and our way (he normally wins). and that's why its so hard because i can never get my point across without him jumping on the defense...now with that being said i know i can come swinging but shit dude let me finish my thoughts before you chime in damn.....never the less this last week has been very ROCKY!!!!! now y'all might be thinking why the hell u in a relationship like this lol......I'll explain

This relationship gets better month after month and that's a fact....so yea there is progression and that's what keeps me going....i know if i tell my boo i don't like something or that he hurt my feelings (I'm sensitive as hell *tear) he will make it a point to either correct it or not do it again....and that is a beautiful damn thing progression is so important and this is my first relationship with progression....i don't feel like I'm in quick sand waiting to be saved....this man of mine makes me smile more than he could ever make me :(....and he is so freaking affectionate its blissful lol....newho but yea its so many reasons why i stay and to some it all up the good far out ways the bad....*I LOVE MY BABY #RLSJ

i found the woman in me

So yea ill be 25 May 20th and honey i don't know if I'm tripping or what but something just clicked and i honestly feel grown...lmao i mean this past year i really feel like i have grown into a very nice young lady....I'm so proud y'all i have come a long way and it shows...from the way i speak and dress i mean its amazing....let me tell y'all i have been a hot head all my life ready to fight the world.....my vocab has always contained profanity and i didn't have proper skills to handle a disagreement without getting "ghetto" lol....newho oh yea I'm a work in progress but y'all i have come a long way and I'm proud...

I hope 25 brings wonderful things i look forward to what life has to offer....its a beautiful thing to witness self growth. now i just need to work on my tact I'm so blunt its crazy lmao...but i say exactly what the hell is on my mind...my filter does not exist it was cute when i was a child but now its just mean...so yea I'm a work in progress,,,

this year begins my natural hair journey I'm super nervous about my "BC" 5-20-2011 let the count down begin. hopefully ill actually have readers ill keep you guys posted...oh and I'm moving fingers crossed on that .

refried beans!

When a woman wants a man or she is in "love" with a man she will do anything for him. That's the beauty of being a woman we loyal, however we can be blinded. A man will let you know if he wants to be with you or not. We all have done it I know I have, stayed in a relationship that I was clearly the only one apart of it. See a man can tell you as well as show you that he not tryna be committed to just one person. So us as women accept the title as "friend" but will play the role of girl friend. And some of us will stay in a messed up relationship simply because we got a title "girlfriend" "baby mama" "wife" but we playing the role of the sideline.....lets start with the ladies that have the "friend" title but play the girlfriend role. Its simple a man tells you he is not ready for a relationship or a girlfriend. But that's not what you want so you accept any title as long as you can be something. You'll still be intimate with him and jump to his side when he needs you. Why cause in your mind you're thinking this will show him that your a good woman and when he finally does want a relationship he'll choose you. And finally you got the chicks that are the "main" but know damn well they are not the only. That accept the fact their man is unfaithful. Accept the role as a side bitch because they got the title. I mean we all have done it. I know I've played the fool but at what point do you say enough. Stop playing the victim at what point do you own up to the fact that you accepted the role the man gave you. Everybody knows a man is happy when you play your role but you're title and role must match. Stop being his girlfriend when he clearly calls you his friend. Stop allowing him to treat you like a side bitch then turn around and try to call you his wifey,girl or whatever. Basically stop being in these relationships that only consist of you and the man that don't want you like that.